From November, 2014
When I wrote the stories God gave me in the Family Connections series, I was elated to share such wonderful news of finding Roma’s first family. But before, during, and even after the joyful discovery of Roma’s first family in the early weeks of 2015, bright and beautiful Roma descended into to a dark place where I could not reach him.
I tried not to be discouraged or fearful, and instead trust God. But I could not write about what our family was going through. Was it my pride? Was this a reflection on my mothering abilities? I think I was more heartbroken than prideful. I had been transparent in the Hound of Heaven Winks and subsequent posts. I had experienced and recognized God’s Closeness as we experienced miracles. I had reason to hope these experiences would transform Roma as they had changed me deep in my soul.
But new struggles were on the horizon every other day. I “sensed” they were coming even before Roma manifested them. It was if God were walking close and preparing me for each new trial. And with each new challenge, I praised God with “thank you, Lord, for this warning, because it isn’t too bad, with your help, we can handle it. It could be so much worse.”
I found it difficult to write during this season of suffering, as I seemed paralyzed by witnessing Roma going off the rails, and my complete inability to prevent it. But that dream, the one I had just prior to all Heaven breaking loose in May, 2014, when God really made Himself known, telling me to “write it all down” was not a suggestion, but an admonition. I am so grateful I wrote down all the God Stories surrounding Roma, or I might have forgotten important details. Many of these posts in this series overlap the time frame of the posts from the Family Connection series.
Maybe these posts will be chapters of a future book. In 2012, when my editor added the words, “The End, and the beginning,” to the last page of the manuscript of the first book, But the Greatest of These is Love, I didn’t know how right she was. So, I’ll launch into another round of Roma Stories. Hang on! From now on, I promise total transparency. God has more than proven He is worthy of my trust.
To God be the Glory!
Consider it all JOY 